stay strong

an entire post dedicated to you. (i hope you know who you are)

we love you to the max. stay strong. we are here for you. stay super strong please. i need your smiles and laughter to keep me happy everyday. if you ever need someone, i'll be there. you not only have me, you have all of us. we'll be there. takecare. if you ever need a shoulder to cry on, a hug when you are down or just a helping hand, i am here, promise. take great care.


seeing you cry made me cry too. we are all strong girls because we have each other. don't cry. and stay optimistic. i really super love you loads.

and today, i 43-ed home with a heavy heart.

love

"I always wanted to be my sister, secretly. she's so innocent and simple minded, not as hungry for success like me. She tries her best in everything she does and she doesn't regret, unlike me who pushes myself so much sometimes I myself cannot take it. She is patient, whilst I am so hot tempered. She's contented with what life gives her, and yet I keep wanting more, forcing and pushing myself to be the best amongst the best, not resting till I win everyone.

Sometimes I get tired just being myself, pushing and pushing beyond limits and wasting life away, never stopping to smell the roses.

Sher Li, I know you are mega happy reading this. Whatever you cow. HAHA."


awwww. such a sweetie! (:


haha. okay lah, to be truthful, i actually admire my sis ALOT.
1) she is brimming with confidence and she doesn't care about what people thinks.
2) she voices out all her opinions and she is frank.
3) she is loud.
4) people keeps thinking she is taller than me just because her legs are skinnier than mine. so stupid. haha.
5) she is always herself in all situations no matter who she is with, or under what circumstances she is in.
6) she is incredibly smart and hardworking and self-motivated.
7) she dares to scold me. !!!
8) she has a lovely sister!

hahahahaha. these are the prettiest looking photos of her i can find.

that's mum and i. hehe!

and i am seriously addicted to 'five people i meet in heaven'. its like awesome, although i keep hearing people say it is not nice. probably, i haven't been reading much and am deprived of better reading materials. haha. i am feeling so excited to continue reading it. bye!

happy chinese new year!

had reunion dinner just now and reached home at ten plus and i am wearing my new pyjamas! hehehehe. i am so happy with it. (:

fel is so dumb. she gets lost easily and she loses her stuff as easily too. and she keeps asking me to update my blog. shall continue when i shou sui later. (:

off to watch TV!

i swear,

i've never been so drained in my whole life ever since school started.
i am so super duper seriously freaking TIRED!
trainings are like so regular, i get to see fballers a great deal more than my classmates and it helps to have MANY MANY MANY fballers in VJ, because i can see them everywhere. totally flooded. haha. in LTs, canteen...
really, i love them to bits.

had CROSS FIT today and it was the worst crossfit ever. i was super shagged after the workout (and now!) i had trouble lifting my legs. i even wanted to give up when i was half way through the second item (my mentality is super suck) but luckily, i didn't, if not i wouldn't live with it. haha! abit too serious but i hope you get the drift. i would feel that its a pity, no?
:)
so i am happy i completed it and i successfully went for every training ever since i set my mind on doing so! great accomplishment sherli! and trainings are like FOUR times a week. lucky, it is decreasing.

my back hurts. 16kg of kettlebell swing is killing my back.
at least we have CNY celebrations tomorrow, but there's training still! ahhhhhhhhh.

ohya! and on the way back home, lynette is super duper funny! (dumb for that matter) or you can call it, bimbo-like.
so, as i was saying, she was like leaning over to ceci and she breathe. LOL.
we didn't change after trng, so ya.

lyn: omg, ceci, you really stink leh.
ceci: really meh! eh, really not.
lynette started reaching out for the deodorant in fel's bag and conveniently sprayed it on ceci on the bus.
after er, 15 mins?
lyn: eh, why ah? still stink leh.
and she starts smelling herself. HAHA.
lyn: omg, its me.

this is super dumb please! we laughed so much, my stomach hurts.
ah, bye. i am exhausted.

haha

i've got comments from wonderful sarah that the previous post overwrites the whole blog because its too emo, even though it only consists of ONE pathetic line, so thou shall not continue with the previous post.
moving on!

had school, had trainings, had weekends, had school, going to have trainings....
its kind of a routine already.

i've got nothing much to update except that probably i went home with liukun today and we talked. nothing much, but i slept immediately after she alighted with my mouth open and face upwards. so unglam! and the best part was i could feel it, but, i was too tired to care. and i almost wanted to take 43 to the very end so that i could sleep even longer, but, i decided not to waste bus fare. (: and i slept the whole afternoon away. i just wasted my one and only pathetic day of the week where i came home early. !!!

i am so tired, i feel like sleeping.

ohya! PE was ultimate frisbee, it feels like being in taiwan yet again, haha. it was quite fun. (:

JAN IS SUPER GEENA. she keeps quarreling with me on msn, so irritating.

when everything goes down

i suck. continue another day. my life sucks.

a quiz my sister wants done

Rules must be followed:
Each blogger must post this rules.
Each blogger must start with ten random facts about themselves.
Bloggers that are tagged need to write about their own blog, ten things and post this rules.
Don't forget to leave them comments telling them they have been tagged and are to read your blog.


10 Random Facts about me.


1. i want to be with friends/family everywhere i go so that i won't feel inferior.
2. i love spicy food ALOT and am afraid to have the true quantity i want with my food for fear of getting a HUGE reaction from friends when i take the chilli/pepper. (applies to wasabi too)
3. i seriously think i am getting fatter as days go by.
4. i am eating my dinner as i am writing this post because of crossfit just now. and the time is 9:48pm.
5. i love breaking minor school rules like attire and think it is fun to run away from mr seet or anybody who catches girls with short skirts.
6. my 16PF (some kind of official personality test) states that i would be a good construction worker when i grow up.
7. i really, truly, don't have much confidence about myself and i hate that fact.
8. i prefer studying to working, so in conclusion, i don't want to grow up.
9. i am crazily in love with the floorballers and i think it is super duper damn fun to hang out with them.
10. i want to know who (anyone, friends or strangers even) reads my blog and don't live a mark/don't tag.

1.Who's the person that tagged you?
my dearest sister.


2. Relationship between you and him?
look above.


3. Three impressions of her?
1. she is incredibly smart, smarter than me. which makes her genius. (:
2. she is ultra short tempered and scolds me although i am older.
3. more mature than me.

4. If she becomes your enemy, you will?
she wouldn't be my enemy, vice versa, but for the sake of this question. sigh, i guess i would just treat her normally like usual.

5. What will you say to the person you like very much?
i like you! duh.


6. Characteristic i like about myself?
i try to be there for my everyone. (:


7. Characteristic i hate about myself?
lack of confidence.


8. For the person whom you hate, you say?
i don't say anything to that person. (: and like i always say to shuhan, HATE IS A STRONG WORD. (:


9. What do people feel about you?
for people who are not close, they would think i am quiet.
for people who are close, they would think i am errr, lame? don't know. ask them.


10. Your crush?
hmmmm, i don't know!


11. Pass this to 10 people:
1. chong shu han!
2. lee yu sin!
3. jan ng!
4. phua liu kun!
5. ong wan qin!
6. martin! (since you tagged me in a quiz, but i didn't get about doing it, so here is one to make up for that. and you should do this too!)
7. ong ying ying!
8. yip con hwa!
9. lynette lee!
10. you.


12. If 5 & 7 were together?
(ong wan qin and ong ying ying) they would be a les couple and their kids wouldn't have any problems with their surnames!

13. who does 5 like?
(ong wan qin) she likes being together with me all the time. okay, change that to LOVE.

14. What colour does 9 like?
(lynette lee) i don't know, what colour does a bimbo like? pink? hahaha!

15. Say something about 8?
(yip con hwa) she forgives me readily for being truthful and telling her that i forgot her birthday, so there wern't any well wishes or present for that matter. all in all, she's NICE!


16. Who is 2?
(lee yu sin) she is my taiwan room mate and she makes weird noises when she sleeps.


17. Talk about 3.
(jan ng) she always bully me along with liukun.


18. Who is 10's best friend?
(you) errrr. that's kinda hard to answer.


19. Who's the sexiest among all 10?
martin! he has the longest and thinnest legs! geez.


20. What colour does 4 like?
(phua liu kun) that's abit hard. i don't remember such worthless details of a friend. but i guess. purple?


21. Is 4 single?
(phua liu kun) naturally! of course! isn't that obvious! hahahaha!


22. Your relationship with 1.
(chong shu han) best classmate.


23. Are 5 & 6 best friends?
(ong wan qin and martin) i don't think so. but they are good friends who went overseas together! hahahah! scandalous.


24. 9's surname?
(lynette LEE)


25. 7's nickname?
(ong ying ying) i don't think she has any that i know of/ call her by. but i don't mind thinking of one for her now!


26. Say something to 8.
(yip con hwa) i know you hope to see me more often in school and i promise i would buy you two presents this year.


27. Say something to help 9.
(lynette lee) do NCHS proud! haha.


28. Who do i admire?
lee yu sin, i guess, for being so outspoken and daring to annoy me, especially. hehe.


29. Where does 1 live?
(chong shu han) TANAH MERAH! go stalk her. i just went there before trng today. (:


30. 10 of them know who you like?
nah, i don't even know who i like/if i like anybody.


31. Say something to 6 when you see him.
(martin) hello.


32. 10's spouse?
(you) errr. up to you to decide.



all right! that's all for this quiz. hope you know me better after reading this. and and and, i want to write more random stuff about myself. 10 isn't enough!
going on,,,,,,

11. i love eating and i am very willing to starve myself the whole day so i can eat all i can during any buffet at night.
12. i was class monitor in p1 and p2 and i became too cocky to be loved by my classmates. don't blame me. i was young and ignorant then. ): and i hate this past of mine.
13. i was damn quiet in primary school and i can't wait to leave primary school so i can start anew in secondary school.
14. i've had two ***.
15. and i regretted every decision relating to that matter till now.
16. i don't like people to say i have changed. i am scared i hear how bad/worse i had become.
17. i am embarrassed to express my love for all my friends and family. i do that through actions.
18. and to continue, i don't mean what i say at times. not being hypocritical but more of zui3 ying4 xin1 ruan3
19. i love life in VJ although people keep telling me they should have gone to poly/other JCs.
20. i love my sister! hehehehehe! who is talking to me online now. awwwwww. doesn't this just contradicts no 17? haha. but this is typing, so its easier. i wouldn't say it out loud because she knows how much i love her. (:

bye! i've been at this for a long long time.

school's starting tomorrow

and now, i've got a sick feeling in my stomach about going to school tomorrow, maybe because i haven't been meeting up with people the whole holidays and i kinda feel drifted from them, yeah. so i feel weird.

on a lighter note, daddy came back from new zealand today! now, i don't have to spend sleepless nights with mummy in her room. i can sleep on my own bed today!

and i've got new shoes for training because mine is spoilt. the soles came off. i am so happy but it is like, quite ex ):

school starts tomorrow, i think i am going to die. not really looking forward anymore.
sigh!
training tomorrow at valhall too. long day. which makes everything, not so interesting. but there is going to be a fball table! (which makes everything a little more interesting) haha. because fballers are the only people that i keep in contact with the whole dec holidays! wheeeeeeeee.

so many things to carry tomorrow. i hope i don't die.

jan is super annoying

i have a sudden urge to blog because i am talking to JAN online and she is seriously being annoying to the max. she is the ultimate, i tell you!
i am having a hard time to resist the urge to post our conversation online because it is simply so annoying and irritating on jan's part and funny on mine because it is damn damn damn sarcastic. annoying jan.

all right, just to show you how bad jan is to me.

JAN (: says:
sherli have u seen the wonderful fabulous incredibly amazing ** schedule?
.
.
.
JAN (: says:
its so incredibly insane
JAN (: says:
like woah! good schedule
JAN (: says:
fabulous
JAN (: says:
arnt u just so happy

roar!!!!!!!!!!!!

but i shall forgive her, seeing that it was her birthday yesterday. by right, she should be more mature because she is already EIGHTEEN after spending just 9 wonderful, fabulous, incredible, amazing days of 2009. but by left, i don't know what happened to her and she is still being so childish and geena, i can't stand it! like now!

mixed

don't really feel very good. because during the storm, people died. although i survived, i am feeling kind of weird. yeah.

i am feeling so sophisticated these few days, probably because i am talking to randy.

anyway, i haven't done much studying these few days and am feeling guilty. ohno! better rush homework over the weekends.

ohya, by the way, i experienced muscle ache in the morning.
and i was almost late for training because i snoozed my alarm and decided to take a little nap. i woke up at 8 when training is at 9. and i have to anyhow pack my bag and anyhow board 372 (which i don't know where it will bring me, except that it is travelling around sengkang) so that the 15minutes bus-stop walk could be reduced by taking bus. but i missed the stop that i had to alight and alighted two stops after and i was lost. so i had to take another bus to CP. and walk to the 27 bus stop and it still took 15 minutes or more. and i boarded 27A when i usually take 27. and jan told me it would stop right outside TSH, but it did not and i ended up being further than that. and i had to run-walk to TSH to find everybody still outside, changing into their long fatpipe socks. zzz. haha. wasted so much MONEY and TIME and now i have -$0.30 in my Ez-link card.

so there, off to watch TV!
note to self: remember to specially walk to CP tomorrow to top up Ez-link card before heading for school, so i've got to leave home early and better not be almost late again.

i really cannot make it

although i know how to swim.
but no matter how hard i try to swim towards shore, the waves would just engulf me and eventually i would still drown.

so, i totally don't think i can make it. because i really cannot.

although reality tapped me so hard on the head, i still longed for that teeny weeny bit of light that i would be able to stay afloat after my head is submerged.

deep down, i wanted so much to say 'i can make it' but i don't have the confidence to do so, so there!
i cannot make it.

cross fit today was all right. don't think there would be much muscle ache tonight. training tomorrow, and i have to wake up super early. let tomorrow pass in a breeze. and friday, saturday to pass ASAP. then daddy would be back.
and all would be better (:

i am scared. fearing for the worse. black.

outings!

had 4I outing. went to sentosa. quite fun. (:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:





went out with Jan, Liukun that day. lol. can go to liukun's blog for details. (: but anyway, we had girl's talk at esplanade and went to eat yuki yaki (whatever it is) never heard of it before. lol. and it was a buffet but i didn't know. so i was quite full, cause i ate bakua before going out. and no mood that day. hahahaha. so i pratically wasted my money there. stupid liukun for suggesting such a thing. ohya! and we exchanged presents. my presents suck. ):

these are our presents. mine is like shit. haha. i mean the ones i prepared for them. ZZZ.

act cool! haha.

tiring days

had a few very very fulfilling days consecutively that i am so DRAINED!
had a few outings with people i have yet to meet during the whole school holidays and i am glad we all finally get to meet up because the holidays are ending.
had 4I class outing today at sentosa. and i left early because home is simply too quiet without me around and i had a fun time at sentosa! photos to be up soon, but i bet i would received it first from OWQ through facebook. thanks in advance!

daddy went to new zealand and i can't wait to get him back.
):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):
it just seemed different without a man in the house.
ahhh.

some people were complaining that their names didn't appear much in the previous post 2008. haha. like PKY who thinks that her name only appear once and not anymore. not even descriptions and she got kinda jealous. haha! and OWQ too. she claimed she only had a paragraph or less and demand for more. haha. so back by popular demand....


2008-part 2

more photos instead of words this time round. (not in chronological order)

my 'birthday' before i went to taiwan and these four great girls surprised me so much! thank you! best birthday ever. (:
the same day as the above picture just that my class came at night around 9 plus. thank you! best surprise ever.
band concert 'not so silent night' in VJC PT. i went with jan and evonne and they accused me of not being able to appreciate the great art of music. haha.
a theme park in taiwan. a few girls here. those missing went to take the 'UFO' which is ultimate scary to the max and i tried and i got super duper frightened.
somewhere in taiwan too. the place where we had our lunch during the first four day tour. funny faces again.supposedly shuhan's and lixuan's birthday celebration but i just realised we didn't sing any birthday song! ):
lao shi's treat at party world for being good students throughout the whole taiwan trip. (: had a great time though i was abit sleepy.
in taiwan yet again, on the top of a hill. i think this is everybody who went with us that day.
at yilan where we went cycling. (: nice cool wind. DAZHI has the best uniform and group of people ever.
class chalet during the december holidays but we had this chalet in november. (: wild wild wet, some weren't present in this photo though.
recent outing with phualiukun and janng. they always bully me. i don't like. haha.
class outing at plaza sing after promos. enjoyable time we had. (:
PW group mates!!! haha. at VS where we finally completed doing our video and the whole of our presentation rehearsals. celebrated by cam-whoring.
love you girls. (:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(: although i look retarded in this photo, i decided to put it up for your sake(S)! haha.
floorball team b after a certain trng in VJ. you guys rock too!!!!!!!!!!
room mates in taiwan. hahahaha! they are all retarded and dumb people. suan one another to the max. i am not involved though.
best friends forever. poor PKY came alone to send us off to taiwan. appreciate it girl! (:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:
sec one till now. we had a LONG history!!! hahahaah. you two are not forgotten!!!! (:(:(:(:(:(:

i hope i don't miss out anybody this time round. (:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:

2008

2008 started off with a scary note with only PKY and me of to a foreign school in a foreign land and i remembered how quiet i was in school and how i longed for PAE to be over so i could join the others in MJC (perhaps). haha. what a fool i was. no longer wanted, so i assumed i would be better of in VJC. and it all turned out fine.

being a slow-to-warm-up-with-people person, i was freaking quiet the whole time through PAE. very not my usual self because i don't know anyone in class. poor me. JAE came and people left and joined 08s54.
i remembered teoxinrui being absent from the first few days of school after PAE due to some kinda eye infection (?) and left poor chongshuhan alone. haha. then i had to SACRIFICE to accompany her because, 08s54 had simply too few girls. and we became quite close after that? haha. i think. (correct me if i am wrong)
and leeyusin, sherlynho and tanlixuan became close friends. (:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:
leaving me with chongshuhan and teoxinrui. like i have a choice. hahahaha. KIDDING. they are wonderful people.

then we became quite close with a few guys, like timothytanekteck, chngchinboon and limjingwei. they are a bunch of nice people too! crappy and funny and all.

next was the dreadful PW, where i was grouped with the ever dearest cedriclee (whose name has not appeared in my blog for so damn long, i think he is kind of sad.) HAHAHAH. and with limjingwei too, who is like SO ANNOYING and SO IRRITATING but he never failed to spice up our PW meetings, causing us to lose focus and drifted FAR FAR from our topic. also with jiangwei who was kinda quiet but contributed a million to make our PW a success. (:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:
we better get our 'A's for PW next year!

ohya, not to forget FLOORBALL, which we all LOVE so much. haha. the trips to the 'A div' matches - soccer girls, volleyball girls, and of course, our ever so exciting floorball matches. (although every match that we went, they lost) and i remembered some people crying although they were not in the team. haha!
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and the so enjoyable team b outings and trainings that a few of us organised to allow bonding to occur. and it did. covalent, ionic, blah blah blah. we became ONE. (or not?)
and out of the floorball girls, i had dearest phualiukun, jannghuixian, lynetteleesihui, tunny and many many more whom i couldn't remember their full names. haha! love each and every single one of them to bits because they brought so much joy to my boring 2008 and make it ever so fulfilling.

and came midyears and of course, the taiwan people and all our buddies.
a significant part of my life. life was so special and so happening then and now. we made great friends - from VJC, and from taiwan. we had late nights out that we all wanted it to stop so that we could have a break but time was always flying far ahead of us that we had problems catching up. and in no time, they were gone, back to where they belong.
we missed them so much and so we went. had an enjoyable time in taiwan. marvellous 18 days that we spent in the cold cold country. and we had joy, we had fun, we had seasons in the sun.... with leeyusin, whom i became very close with because of taiwan. haha! she had many retarded comments about me which she can't seem to keep to herself and i did/said those stupid stuff so she could LOOK smart. and the ever loving and sweet ongwanqin (CHAI!) who was with me through thick and thin. i love you to the max my dear. she was one of the FEW that saw me cry the most in my life. haha! be honoured. my tears don't roll down that easily. (:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:
and tanyirong, who is so lame, and so innovative to invent a nice nickname like CHAI. good job.

and in taiwan, i met many wonderful friends like maojia, molly, each and every one of the dazhi people, and of course, who else! haha. my buddy!!!! (:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:
thank you for all the tremendous memories. i would always keep it and treasure it at the bottom of my heart.
also, we have the singaporeans from the five JCs that went to dazhi as well. the twins (christinehor and jocelynhor) who are so cute together, as well as ohpengho who had been an excellent classmate and all. not to forget leonard and mingxuan. haha! they ate so many different types of chou dou fu in one day, it is so gross now i come to recall. lol.
can't wait for our first ever DAZHI outing on monday! (:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(: hope attendance would be good.

and of course, bothering me in 2008 would be matters of the heart which i wouldn't be elaborating because it just ain't worth mentioning. but i am good so far. (:
and i had contacts, a floorball stick, two earholes on each ear, new clothes and a sunglass from taiwan... in 2008.
i also had comments that my skirt is too short but it is just the norm for VJ. haha.
and i also had gatherings with gohhuihui, onghongxi and the other old friends during the holidays which made life more interesting that it was.

i am fearing the 'A's and fearing the 'O's for my sis in 2009.

i think that should be all for this post. i am done typing!
2008 is good because i am feeling happy now. (:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:
rock on, 2009!