it is difficult to ignore and almost impossible to pretend you know nothing about it because everything seems to be printed black and white or rather, it is pretty obvious to all of us now that it may require a much longer time and plenty of hard work before it all becomes one again.

it is quite saddening to know that you/we are not included in these plans but let's not get too hot and bothered by it.
start anew.

i cried today. i really think VJ deserves to win. they really played hard and fought well. the penalty that the refree gave to MJ is classic. our goal keeper rocks. (:

racial harmony day. yusin, shuhan and sherlyn wore ethnic costumes. and i realised that i only came to school for 3 periods because i have super alot of breaks on monday and 2 more because the others are doing chem spa which i am due to take next week.

then, when we were scheduled to leave to support the guys, random people sprinted onto the bus and it was fully occupied. it was so ironic because the bus was supposedly booked for the floorballers but none were on the bus. and we have to cab there. -.-
i message shuhan and told her how angry we all were because mr seet ask us to get down the bus when we were supposed to be on it. ARGH. and it was raining. we had to walk out to take a cab. then shuhan said i could call jingwei's dad to fetch us without booking charge. and i told the floorballers how nice he was. so i called the number given and they gave me cedric's number! arghhhh. LOL. i think i am kind of dumb. i was like " hello, uncle ar. uncle?" then i heard cedric's voice. !!!!! haha. quite funny actually but under the circumstances, i was so drenched and cold i forgot to laugh and we missed the opening goal scored by VJ.

we reached 10 minutes after the game started. and first period was over. and we were happy. then it was 2-0 with VJ leading. and we were so happy and excited. you could see our joy on our faces. hugging and screaming when they scored. it became 2-1, 2-2 and the second period was over. then we scored 3-2 in the third which is the last period. and we thought we were going to win. our defence was great. ( with edward around, what is there to fear? that was what i thought) then it became 4-3 because at the last minute, the MJ capthain scored another goal which changed the score to 4-3. and when the ball was brought to the centre for face-off, the whistle sounded and we lost. i cried. they were so sad. when they thank us for supporting them, when the seniors started "yo, vjc", it was so so so touching and disappointing. very sad. i don't know why they still have the motivation to cheer and all, i just feel so sad. just standing there. i really think they should win. they played very very very well. i am sad that they can't make it to the final top 2.
and during the match, a penalty was given to MJ. during penalties, everybody was very quiet. no talking or cheering so as not to break the keeper's and the shooter's concentration. the MJ captain took it, he slowly advanced towards the goal. just when he was super close, amos, our goal keeper shouted " HEY YOU!" he really got a shock ok. haha. and the ball just roll off to the side. and we started cheering and screaming. haha. amos just rocks. but this brought about a long and lengthy discussion with the refrees and both team captains. in the end, after a verbal warning to amos, i think, they continued the game! haha. totally cool. i don't know why but i cried when they couldn't score the penalty. too happy i guess.

after that it was back to school for taiwan meeting with evonne who have to rush to school for guitar. we overslept on the bus and ended up at parkway. both feeling hungry, we went for BK at 4 plus which turned out to be my dinner. and we were late for my meeting and her guitar. lol.

taiwan meeting is fun. haha. i am excited that they are coming again. no longer thinking it is troublesome. they are coming this saturday! (:

and last of all, i pierced my ear. like finally. 2 ear holes on each side. min was brave. she pierced at the upper portion of the ear. so scary. i think it is painful. my ears are red and hot now.

in conclusion, today is a sad day because the guys not winning today's match to proceed to the finals cancel out every joy i had today.

CLASS OUTING IS SO FUN!!!!!!!!!! hahahahahahahaha. i LOVE 08S54. (:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:
i am lazy to elaborate why it is so fun. but i still will. (:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:

okay. we had dinner at marina square at something appetite. i forgot the name. i arrived at 6 plus and waited for shuhan at control station before walking there. i scared i get lost. then we ate. and we talked and took photos. and kalun said his speech. a super short one but it left shuhan crying and tears in my eyes. kalun is nice. he ordered oreo cheese cake for all of us. the girls went to the toilet. photo-taking time. came back and ate the cheese cake. paid for our meals. took photos as a class and with kalun individually. toilet for the girls again. went back home. and we were super high. haha. me and shuhan that is. laughing all the way. and the ride back home was fun. haha. not to mention the walk back home. with jingwei talking and lying all the way. lucky i didn't really believe him. (:(:(:(: bathed and here blogging.

in conclusion, everything that happened today is so so so so so so so so so so so fun!!! except for the fact that i made yusin's shoes wet accidentally because of the stupid wet toilet. SORRY!

i really really really really really really love our class. (:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:

tomorrow i am going to miss triple GP and i am so happy. haha. but when i get home, i would have to write essay which everyone had already written in class. but it is okay. haha. i hope VJ wins tomorrow and kick MJ out. (:(:(:(:(: they really really really really really deserve this win.

i LOVE 08S54 once again.

i am having a headache and flu.

i am freaking bored that i do useless stuff such as spamming my own blog with posts!!! haha. what a dumb thing to do. i feel so lazy. sleep and sleep and sleep. can't wait for tomorrow's class outing. lol.

maybe it is a good thing to pursue your dreams. but leaving the happy memories and going to another unfamiliar surrounding, starting anew, leaving everyone behind. i guess i don't have much of a courage to do that. you will be dearly missed by all!!!!!!

its late. but i suddenly have the urge to blog.

this is the conversation that i remembered most vividly this few days. lol.
it goes something like this. i cannot really remember clearly. (does it contradicts the above sentence?) lol.

one day when walking to the hall for morning assembly,
wq: you look very cool.
me: really? maybe i should smile more when i walk? *laughs and grins*
wq: ya. look abit dao or sad.
ky to wq: she always like that one. ba bu kai xin de cang qi lai.
ky to me: i read your blog. don't be sad lah.
me: i got meh? not sad lah. *smile*

i am not sad. (:(:(:(:(: and now is the time to delete emo posts. haha. let my blog be a happy one. maybe the part about hiding your unhappiness is true? lol. it is nice to be happy and fun-loving in front of other people instead of being so emo-y and show your true feelings. it always spoil your day and those spending the day with you. so be happy for the sake of others and yourselves. (:(:(:(:(:(:(:

there is class outing tomorrow. at city hall mrt. 4pm. i am going straight from ah ma house. i hope tomorrow end with a light note and not a heavy heart which i think it would most probably be. treasure the times we have left together as a full 08S54 class, ppl! (:(:(:

i have been sleeping alot lately. come home from school, sleep for around 3 or 4 hours straight. the more you sleep, the more tired you get, the more swollen your eyes will be. shuhan is an example. haha. but right now, i am atill going to sleep because i feel like sleeping and i am tired. (:

it is nice to sleep with or without dreams. i kind of like dreams except for the fact that if what happened in my dream is a pleasant one, and it is just a dream, i will feel sad.
and and and, you can continue with your dream even if you are wake up suddenly. i tried it before. lol. it works okay. if u wake up with a start from a dream, and if u want to continue living in dream land, literally, just close your eyes and think of the dream you just had and SLEEP! it will continue. haha.

there was once i had a nightmare about many many disgusting cockroaches and i woke up suddenly. but i was too tired. and i closed my eyes reflecting about how eek-y the cockroaches were and stuff, i fell asleep and i am back to the same nightmare. haha.

and i like to have a very nice dream once in a while. sometimes, dreams show what you have been thinking or are bothered about or people you are concern or are affected by, (at least that is what i believe) but you choose to ignore it or place them at the back of your mind, hoping these thoughts or feelings are not true and that you are just being overly sensitive. and these pops out as dreams unexpectedly. so, in conclusion, it is quite an honour to be in someone's dream unless of course, that person consider you being in his/her dream to be a nightmare. (:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:


i wonder why this post is about dreams. lol.

random: jingwei says my blog is not bad. haha. AND i LOVE durians!! but i HATE cheese. stupid smelly stuff. (:(:(:(:(:(: gross.

oh ya. i forgot to say that i have the passion for volleyball once again because of that nine oclock show and after xinrui said she played volleyball yesterday. haha. so now, i WANT to play volleyball.
but i WANT to play floorball too. it has been ages since i last touched my stick. lol.


and and and. i want to add that my econs teacher is so... i don't know how to describe. haha. she changed our places!!! so lame!!!

*deleted*

there should be no emo posts in my blog. haha. so i guess i will delete those past emo stupid posts when i feel like it. (:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(: not exactly smiling now, but i guess it makes people reading my blog happier with the 'haha's here and there plus many smiley faces. haha.

i hope to go for match support tomorrow. but if the floorballers don't reply my messages, i guess i won't be going because it is not fun watching the match without the people you enjoy watching the match with most. so yup. don't deprive me a chance to skip lessons! haha. kidding.

school was all right these few days. TUNNY'S BIRTHDAY. we did a board. (as usual). seriously getting sick of it. (: but, it is still quite well done. and i hope TUNNY likes it. HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! (:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(: red stick= red words.

the taiwan people are coming next saturday and i am getting a teeny weeny bit excited. although i still think it is very troublesome, with the video making, performances and having them at my house for ten plus days.
but it is good to have company when you sleep. haha. because you can chat all night long to that person. but i guess we would most likely have nothing to chat about due to language barriers. i think my chinese sucks now. luckily i don't take chinese if not i will perish. haha.

random: i think i am going to stay up late tonight because i slept 3 hours in the afternoon and i realise i have developed a phobia for physics, the subject i am once most confident in.

YAY!!! surprise well done. everything is going well. SCHOOL IS FUN TODAY!!!! haha. i totally love the two winnies. haha. super duper cute. although the colour may be weird to some people but i think it is quite nice!! haha. WONDERFUL, EXCELLENT, MARVELLOUS, TREMENDOUS!! lol. love today. i am super happy!!!!!! and later, i will be going to pasar malam outside nchs. haha. odd place to situate a night market. lol. i've never seen one just outside the school. along the side gate all the way to the main gate. haha.
i think the volleyball show on channel 8 which is showing now is quite screwed. the people can't play properly and it looks so fake. lol. only perhaps, christopher lee is hot and he plays well. haha.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO LIUKUN!!! (:purple in colour because you have purple stick. the board is also purple because of your stick and shoes. haha. say i am thoughtful some one. (:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:

i am feeling so happy today. screw the sadness on saturday night.

YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY!!!! vj floorball team rocks. (:
6-2 for guys against MI and 11-0 for girls against MI too!!!!
love them to bits although i didn't contribute. but man, i am feeling the joy too!!! hahahahahah. good good good. we must win back the title this year!!! (:(:(:(:(:(:(:

school was boring today. and i met the usuals for lunch/tea break at nchs. FUN FUN FUN. saw hongxi as well.

i think phy is a disappointment considering that i have more confidence in physics than in chemistry or maths.
never mind. (:


FLOORBALL ROCKS(:

we played floor ball during PE and i scored two goals. wahaha. and the three of us (yusin me sherlyn) played with the other class. xunmin's and may's class to be exact. and i've got a freaking big bruise on my leg. it is super pain okay. even when i am walking or just doing nothing to it at all. just because some guy swung his stick at my leg. wow. i just let him get the ball lah. LOL.

pw is turning out fine though we were facing too many obstacles one group could face when doing the group project proposal. i guess i would have to stay up late tomorrow just to rush the gpp. and we have surveys for others to do!!!!!!!!!! watch it people. better help me do surveys although i don't do the surveys people send me. but please help!!!!!!!! do a kind deed. (:


i've gotten back maths and chem. chem is a real killer paper. but i am quite satisfied lah. (:

and on the way home, i saw KAYE/KAIYI!! haha. dad and i were at the traffic light and i felt my phone vibrating. and she told me she was in the bus at that traffic light!! haha. funny girl.

econs sucks by the way. i've not been bringing notes on market structure ever since the lecturer started changing to set 3 of the market structure notes. lol. loads of copying to do!!! (:


last but not least, PLEASE GO TO VJ'S PIANO CONCERT!!!!!! because i am going and all the floor ball people better be. lol. (: if not, disciplinary actions will be taken again i guess. *wink* (:




the happy person once again with her mind filled with dozens of memories from the years that left, leaving behind the empty shell, waiting...

I AM HUNGRY!!!! i don't know why nobody is at home to cook dinner for me!!! and it is 645 pm!! haha. never mind. i shall wait.



i was thinking of the past and i was sad. ):
those images that flashed past my mind. it made me feel as though i was living in that point of time.
those painful memories....
maybe all of us should stop wallowing in the past, then we would be a different happy person(: