in the past when we were together, i wished the years pass so quickly so that i could be married with you and have kids with you and live our lives together happily ever after. that's how much i want to be with you.

but now, i cant have that anymore. i can only wish that the years would pass so quickly that we would go one big round and end up together again 10 or 20 years down the road.

why am i so desperate. the alcohol is making me optimistic and that's ridiculous. maybe 10 or 20 years later, you would be happily married and be with a girl of your dreams and it ain't gonna be me.

i hope everything works out in the end.

hope is all that i have left.