fortunate

i always had this feeling throughout the past 18 years of my life that i've been terribly lucky. sometimes, i wonder when my luck will run out. i hope it wouldn't though (:

academics wise, i screwed up my PSLE, but that's the first major exam. i was too dumb to know that i screwed it up. i was just happy to get into NCHS cause it was so near my house. and we celebrated (:
then there's Os. i am always lucky and i got away happily with it. we celebrated again. haha. then As. which i feel i am terribly lucky as well. but we haven't celebrate ):

there are many aspects of life and i've been lucky in those aspects. i didn't know what i i did to deserve what i have now, but i am contented (:

now its just applying for scholarships and whats not. tiring, and being very lazy. its been long since i used my brain.

i've no inspiration, i am just typing nonsensical stuff. BLEAH. read it or leave it (:

i am a happy girl all over again.

gastric flewwww

back from the doctor's. supposed to have tuition, but had stomachache, and felt like vomiting. halted tuition, didn't even finish the one hour and a half session. was perspiring like mad, went to toilet a few times, until i decided to end the session. sigh. i just made a wasted trip to bedok. daddy and mummy came to fetch me to see the doctor. i was too weak to stand, walk, pack my bag, go to the toilet.

and the kids in the house were quite funny.
kids talking to each other. 'don't disturb the tuition teacher. tuition teacher sick.'
'tuition teacher, you want?' he offered me potato chips. LOL.

i told the parents my dad fetching me. but my mum coming upstairs to get me.
boy: teacher, your dad come up and fetch you?
me: no, my mum. *smiles*
girl: teacher, your dad come up and fetch you?
me: *smiles* no, my mum.
girl: ohhhhhh.

that's so cute. haha. especially when the whole family and i were in the living room.

student told mum that i was sick.
girl: tuition teacher, you sick ah? why you sick?
*too weak to answer, just shrug*
girl: tuition teacher, you want to eat? (dinner)
*shakes head*
girl: nice. *points at my toenail*
i saw her toenail, and she has pedicure too. hahaha.



apparently, i am the tuition teacher of their family. i am teaching the brother and the sister. the cute boy and cute girl are my students' nieces and nephews. so cute. they are really cute but cute boy is really naughty. cute girl is really talkative but i love her.

enough about today, just ate my tablets and cough mixture. i am a bit hungry. i think i vomited my food out. don't know where the food came from. i haven't had my dinner yet.

whatever, life is okay.

but its going to change. everything will change on friday ):
SIGH

sigh!

hi world, i've had an eventful week (:

its all going to be mundane again, but not just yet. we have results to worry about, or rather, i have results to worry about. i will be so sad, so don't come and comfort me when i cry. just let me go home and brood, thank you very much.
SIGH

when the earth keeps spinning, friday gets closer, and its so dreadful! i keep getting bouts of anxiety or panic, and i get scared and sad that i've absolutely no confidence. whatever happened to all my hard work? ):
i can't even remember if i worked hard. SIGH.

let me enjoy my last few days of freedom before i get bugged by what course to choose or which uni to go to. SIGH SIGH SIGH. friday is such a sad day. SIGH. i can't stop sighing and i am not doing it on purpose):

in any case, i've had a wondrous week and a perfect day lazing around. i'm glad we are such lazy people because we can just laze around doing nothing the whole day and time still flies.

SIGH, results. it just sucks the joy out of me.