hi

hi blog.

do you think i will get cheated? but its so easy to trust. and so hard to do otherwise. so easy to just believe. and go with it.

but i won't. cos i have no guts. and i worry. and i still think of you. its just that i force you to the back of my mind the moment you enter my thoughts and cloud my mind with another person who treats me right (for now).

still, its too fast for me.

i'm still not over you. i'm trying. but it feels like i'm using him. he said he doesn't mind, but i mind. god knows i mind. i feel freaking guilty.

guilty about everything. about how you might feel. especially when i can't even seem to accept you with another girl yet. what's this?

i wasn't even supposed to care. help.

take things slowly. company is good. company is just right. i don't want anything more. friends will do. nothing more. i'm not ready for this.