day one

i have this sick feeling in my stomach the whole day. i feel nauseous. i think this is what its all about.

i feel the need to be brave. to embrace everything. i am doing well, but my mind wanders at times. too many a time, i must say. i am thinking every second of the day when i am unoccupied. i need to keep myself busy. and at the same time, earn some money which equates to a job. this is not going to be easy, nor is it going to be tough. it will be all right. i just need MANY tutoring assignments. (:

i want to be strong, but sometimes, i just want to snuggle up to you, to let you protect me, to be by your side. its day one and i am missing everything about you. your soft touch, your light tickles, your small eyes, your lovely kiss, your tight hugs, your not-so-broad shoulders, your spiky and pokey hair, your face, your specs. everything.

i am really fine. i am doing well. i just need to get use to feeling nauseous. i am okay. i just get worried about how you are doing, whether you are used to your new lifestyle, the fitness routine and all. i dont want you to feel upset, unhappy, or anything negative. i want to be here, i cannot emphasize the fact, or how strongly i want you to know that i am always here for you. and ultimately, i want to give you confidence that you will do well. you will be fine, just like how i will be. (:

we will all be fine, and then, time is going to fly. (: