fear

one of the many things - when relationships fade.

i don't know why, but i can't seem to be able to maintain a close relationship with someone who is not in the same surroundings as me, no matter how close we were before, everything changes when we separate. that's bad. its me. really. i don't like this to happen. i lost so many friends through my don't-know-how-to-keep-in-touch attitude. maybe it isn't an attitude. that's too harsh. haha. but you get my drift.

how now brown cow? because in a few months time, we would go our seperate ways. every single one of us. that's sad, cause i don't ever want to leave this part of my life behind. nostalgic, yes. i've got so many things on my mind, i don't know how to start typing all of it down, so let's just stop here. haha.

oh, but there's one thing i got to add. i think i am losing the wonderful 'floorball' part of my life now, which is terrifying. kidding, but it is saddening, depressing and all. not to that extent, but i think i am losing them. by not turning up for the sentosa outing, and the friendly.

its all me, i told you.


random, but studying during the holidays is the worst way to spend a holiday when a holiday is, according to the Cambridge Advanced Learners Dictionary,
a time, often one or two weeks, when someone does not go to work or school but is free to do what they want, such as travel or relax.

we are indeed free to do what we want, but if we do that, CT2 would be a disaster. and it would be a disaster if i am here any longer, so bye!