sigh

it feels like everything is crashing down.
i realised i am happy over minor and trivial things but those that has caused me to be unhappy are more serious and important stuff which i simply cannot turn away from.
i feel dumb.
and at times like this, i need YOU.
but you are not there. not anywhere near. gone, i suppose.

had training. and it kinda sucked. but ohwell. tomorrow is rest day. nothing to look forward too. got to sit down and pack my luggage. i am having a grim perspective of the outcome of happenings today so don't blame me if this post sounds too emotional or pessimistic. but we all have our downs, don't we?
had dinner and it was fun. quality time with family is the best. the best of the best.

but its not what i want. i want many things.
i hate this. i can't stand it anymore. seriously, i am getting pissed the more i think. so thou shall not think. i am going to sleep.