doomsday indeed

sherli says:
i am just sad and very disappointed that what i worked hard the most didnt give me results that i want
sherli says:
work hard, i still get nothing
sherli says:
i dont compare my grades with other people
sherli says:
i compare my grades with the different subjects and the different amount of effort i put into each one
sherli says:
chem i put in the most effort
sherli says:
it got the lowest
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it is not fair
sherli says:
so that is what i am feeling
sherli says:
i havent tell my parents yet
sherli says:
they ask then i tell
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if i just go and tell, i will cry
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sherli says:
all careless
sherli says:
i dont know why i make careless mistakes
sherli says:
i know careless mistakes is better than not knowing how to do at all
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but being careless is causing me all these stupid feelings
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sherli says:
i feel sad because i work so hard yet nothing came out of it
sherli says:
i see the targets i set for promos, and i didnt even meet any of them
sherli says:
maybe my expectations are too high
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but i expect myself to do better since i studied harder for promos than midyears
sherli says:
yet, i deprove
sherli says:
when i compare the effort i put in for midyears and now
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it is so much more
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yet now, everything deprove
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chem is the worse
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sherli says:
i studied so hard for chem yet everything is in vain
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and the paper is easier than midyears i still get lower
sherli says:
and in the end, my promos pull everything down
sherli says:
my grades suck
sherli says:
everything suck
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i was sad
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then i was happy cos everybody was with me
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my classmates and ky and the floorballers
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but now, i am alone at home
sherli says:
my sister and parents dont understand
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my sister did cheer me up
sherli says:
she tried
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but i am still unhappy
sherli says:
now i am alone, i keep thinking
sherli says:
when i am alone, i dont have to be happy in front of anybody so that they will not worry
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in school, i have no right to be unhappy in front of my classmates cos although i think my results suck, there are people who may feel worse
sherli says:
if i am sad, they will be like mo ming qi miao
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like that also sad
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so i stay happy
sherli says:
but now, i am alone in my room, although the door is open, nobody is coming into my room and asking me anything
sherli says:
so i can be sad now
sherli says:
on the bus just now, when liukun left,
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i was alone once again
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i felt like crying
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all right. i guess that sort of sum up how i have been feeling today.
reminder to people out there who are feeling down: go to your friends when you are sad. they will be glad to cheer you up. you will also feel alot better after talking to them. although, they may not completely comprehend how you are feeling, at least you are getting it off your chest. cry if you want to. get everything out. friends are for a lifetime. i believe in that. just that if you have too many friends, like me, (HAHA) you gotta repeat everything a zillion times, and it might get a little on your nerves. so in conclusion, it is always better to have just a FEW good friends to confide in.
and these few made my terrible day an okay one. i love these people, not naming, lazy. you should know who you are. and yup, sorry for being such a brat(: making you people worry and only replying to messages i feel like replying.
i am normally NOT emo, all right? get this straight. haha.

anyway, training was all right. i am having muscle aches all over.

everybody who are in some way depressed due to promos, get over it, like how i get over it. get over every obstacle that comes your way with the help of FRIENDS. friends are important creatures. (:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:
THANK YOU TO ALL(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(: